PINCHAS BEN PERETZ HALEVI

People ask me why I am so passionate about Ibogaine. The list of reasons that I can list about is numerous but none of them is as personal as my own story.

I struggled my entire adult life with drugs. It all started after dentist prescribed me a bottle of Vicodin for tooth pain that aspirin would have handled. What aspirin didn’t do was make me comfortable in my own skin, Vicodin did that job well.

The euphoria was short lived because soon I needed 3 times as much to do half the job the first two did that first time I took them.

That story is consistent with many of my peers. But what I don’t find in common, only because it is almost never talked about, is the trauma that those first couple Vicodin seemed to relieve. Trauma is common across the world, it is part of the human condition. What is uncommon about Trauma and substance abuse is how little emphasis is put on the magnitude of the hold that trauma has on our lives. Making recovery from substance abuse almost impossible. Even the medical field and all the science involved in it have doubled down recently to say that “addiction is a disease that has no cure.”

My personal story is ripe with having completed almost every known form of traditional treatment, all with varied amounts of success in regards to clean time. None of those treatments ever did a thing to help me resolve the trauma that was handed down to me and eventually I would use again.

Ibogaine treatment was first time in my life that I had a chance to not just identify the trauma but resolve it as well. I also had a spiritual experience that sealed the door on any doubt I once had that there was no Creator. I always had a tinge of doubt which was enough to take me out. That was resolved too. It has been since 2012 that I used drugs and I have never been so sure that I am done with drugs. I equate it to trying to eat if your not hungry, your just not going to eat. I am devoid of any obsession or reservations to use. It does nothing for me to talk about using drugs, I feel like someone who has no idea what it means to have never even been dopesick.